He Was Everything That Was Wrong With The World

I had looked at him a lot of time, but never really paused to see. And finally when I did, my whole world came crashing right in front of my eyes. I wasn’t falling in love. What was happening lacked every softness love is supposed to possess. He was everything that was wrong with the world.

Before knowing him I was happy. I had everything a girl could dream of, ambitions, love, friendship.....sanity. He snatched them all along with my sleep without even acknowledging it.....maybe without even knowing.

But I kept standing there watching how his lips curl while drinking tea.....how his eyes get all the more slitty when he smiles....how his fingers create things on paper out of nothing......I kept standing there watching a flood of feelings wiping everything I have created so far, with so much effort.

It was an eternity. The clock refused to move. People refused to stay silent. Crowd surrounded me like loneliness. I saw him sitting....I tried hard to listen...He didn’t speak a word but my mind translated his silence to whatever I wanted to hear. I was falling and wanted him to lift me up...wanted him to pull me closer and stop my heart from shivering. I was tired and wanted to rest in his warmth. I was hurt and wanted him to kiss the pain away....but I knew that kiss will take away last few strands of sanity left in me. Fortunately he did nothing, except seeing me tormenting myself from afar. As cold and distant as ever.

More than love, it was suicide. Slow poisoning. He was the person I was bound to fall for but could never attain. I couldn’t even try. That would mean breaking a lot more things....tearing too many people apart....I couldn’t afford that. He was a dream that would never come true. He was everything that was wrong with the world.

That was what I wrote a long time back. He destroyed my world beyond repair. Only thing I could do was to make a new world with him. Which we did...slowly and slowly. It’s not a paradise but a very cosy home. But he is still everything that is wrong with the world.....only cuter.